FILM WEDNESDAY: Beasts of No Nation

AMAZING FILM. So eye opening and intense.

It tells the story 0f a young African boy named Abu, who is forced to become a child soldier after his family is killed during the civil war that is taking place in his country.

The country remains unnamed throughout the film, suggesting that it is a portrayal of the widespread reality being faced in most of the African continent.

Despite the violence and savagery portrayed in the film, there is an odd sense of hope behind it as well, for despite being completely brainwashed and forced to do terrible things, there is still a side of Agu that believes in a better life, a better future, and this belief is constantly tested as his story unfolds.

He loses more and more of himself as he carries on, so much so that at one point he realizes he is never going to go back to being the happy little boy he used to be; but not once does he forget to pray, and to hold on to the only part of him that still feels, deep down, at least partially pure: his heart.

Along with his loyal friend, Strika, another child soldier who is so traumatized by the war that he never speaks, he bares through the life he was condemned to, just like the thousands of other African children before him, and the thousands yet to come.

Watch it on Netflix!



MUSIC FRIDAY: I’m Still Here by John Rezeznik

I thought this song was appropriate for today since I disappeared yet again for about two weeks due to college madness. Architorture, like I’ve said multiple times on this blog, is insanely time consuming, BUT I’M STILL HERE haha.

Of course that’s not the only reason why I’m posting this. On top of that, this song is actually very nice, and is the soundtrack to one of my favorite Disney movies of all times: Treasure Planet (is it weird that I kind of had a crush on the main character even though he’s a cartoon????? IDK, please don’t judge me haha).

Check it out:

And also check out Treasure Planet’s trailer:


So I was talking to my mom on Monday about my pathetic love life and how I thought I had found the right guy (not a God, sure, but not an asshole either which, let’s face it, is rare, and actually fun to talk to; also not weird in the bad way, only in the good way, etc) BUT THEN, THIS GUY, YOU GUYS, THIS GUY, IS TALKING TO ME ON FRIDAY OF LAST WEEK, AND SO HE’S LIKE:

“Yeah.. tomorrow I’m gonna pick up my cub.”

Innocent me thought, awww he got a pet or something

BUT THEN THIS GUYS YOU GUYS, SAYS: “No, no haha. I have a one year old son.”



So when the guys aren’t jerks, or gross, or too weird for words, THEY ARE FATHERS OF TINY CHILDREN.

I’m twenty years old, goddammit. I don’t have time for this shit!

So yeah, the twenty three year old guy I was seeing has a son, and I can’t handle that, so off to the next candidate.

HOWEVER, this whole story was to say that when I told my mom about this I was like: “Well, that’s just my luck.”


So I did just that, and it was amazing. I’d forgotten how cute that film is. It’s with the fabulous (and still normal at the time) Lindsay Lohan and the adorable Chris Pine, so that’s reason enough to grab some popcorn already.

In it, Lohan plays the super lucky and perfect Ashley, who ends up losing her luck to a super UNlucky Jake (Pine) when kissing him at a masquerade party. When she realizes what happened, she goes on a wild search to find him and take her luck back. Only problem is… she has no idea who he is!

Watch to see what happens!!!!!

Here’s the trailer:



My Computer Broke

So I was trying to write regularly here again, because like I said on a previous post, I was struggling a little with a bad time in my life and all that jazz. And I really was doing just that; writing again, drawing again, playing guitar again, living again.

But then my computer broke last week and it has been a total hassle because everything I do in college depends on that stupid machine, so I’m struggling haha.

Unfortunately, this is leaving me with little time to write here 😦

But I figured I had to post about why I haven’t been posting anything lately, haha, and at least it’s not because I’m depressed again (well, I am a little, but this time it’s not enough to stop me from writing :), thankfully).

So yeah, I hope to be back soon!


MUSIC FRIDAY: Something in the Air by Seafret

For anyone out there who likes bands like Imagine Dragons, Vance Joy or The Lumineers, not only do I fully approve of your musical taste, I also feel like you would love this band I recently discovered called Seafret.

They’ve got some really cute, chill songs, and the singer’s voice is very similar to Vance Joy’s. I really like the songs Atlantis, Oceans, and Give Me Something, but my absolute favorite is Something in the Air.

It’s got the sweetest vibe to it, almost soothing in a way, with it’s delicate guitar bit in the beginning and such lovely lyrics.

Check them out!


FILM WEDNESDAY: My Afternoons With Margueritte

When french films decide to be emotional, they get really freakin’ emotional, and that is absolutely the case with My Afternoons With Margueritte. I watched this with my mom a little while ago, and it made me all warm and happy inside. Totally recommend it.

The story is about a young man, Germain, who is a little different from the others; he just has a bit more trouble thinking about things and understanding them. It doesn’t help at all that his bitter mother treats him like an idiot (it makes him think he really is one, which is far from the truth). Also, no matter what his teachers did in his school years, it all came down to the fact that he simply cannot read. Not if his life depends on it.

Despite all, people still like him for his endearing and pure personality, and for his unyielding loyalty. He is just one of those truly good people, and even though he sometimes says the wrong thing, they know it is always with the best of intentions.

One afternoon (quite a frustrating one for this poor fellow), he decides to relax a little at a park bench, where he sometimes goes to watch pigeons (he in fact gave each pigeon a name, and knows them apart). There, he meets 95-year old Margueritte, and so begins an unexpected and lovely friendship between the two.

Margueritte loves to read; she has read every book a person can think of, and when she meets Germain, she decides she will read those books to him, since he cannot do that himself. She also decides she will try to teach him how to read, even if everyone else has given up.

Watch to see what happens!!! 🙂 It’s really beautiful, I promise. You will be touched by how the story unfolds. Not to count that Germain is played by none other than the legend, Gérard Depardieu, which is reason enough to watch anything.


Shitty times

Sorry I disappeared people who still read this if there is anyone left at all.

I’m going through something.

I don’t know exactly what.

I’m just incredibly sad and lost and confused.

I used to love writing and drawing and playing music.. Now nothing seems to matter anymore. All I want to do is sleep and sleep, sleep everything away.

Maybe I’m depressed or, like my mother would say, I’m complaining with a full plate in my hands.

I guess she’s right. I feel very blessed for the life I’ve been given. I really do.

But I think what is making me sad is the rest of the world. What’s the point of my life if everything else is just falling apart around me?

The more I understand the world, the more miserable it makes me feel.

People have become fake, empty, selfish and ignorant zombies. Children starving or dying victims to senseless wars and no one does anything. Enough money in the world to feed everyone, but it stays in the pockets of a handful of filthy, rich, miserable parasites, who feast on every one else’s unfortunate dependency on money to survive the sick system that is capitalism. Men and women subjecting themselves everyday to conditions no one should ever be forced to live under, only to have maybe a loaf of bread to share with their family at night.

And then I sit here with this computer in my hands, feeling lonelier than ever, in perhaps the worst year of my life, and yet I’m doing nothing to change any this. Nothing to change my unhappiness, and nothing to change the unhappiness that seems to be slowly swallowing up the world, and that therapists and psychologists insist can be cured with some diabolical little pill they’ve invented.

But pills won’t solve anything.

Pills will only quiet the pain. And perhaps we should listen to that pain instead of running from it. Maybe that pain is there to force us to do something about it.

I wish I had the strength to do something about it. About all of this shit.

But honestly, I feel powerless.

Powerless and alone.

And I don’t know how to change that.

Sorry for the depressing post (especially since I haven’t posted anything in so long).

I’m going to try to go back to writing here. I really will.

K, bye.